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Name:

Anna Maria Hedman


Social media/online presence/website:

www.amhedman.com


You’re based in:

Gothenburg


Have you lived or studied elsewhere:

Ah yes. I moved to London in march 1999, worked, studied and lived gloriously until 2012 when I moved to Gothenburg. I’m originally from the north of Sweden, just beneath the artic circle.


Describe your art practise and your family dynamic:

I live with my boyfriend and we have a daughter together. He’s also a self employed creative so we weren’t able (economically) for him to be on parent leave but he’s free with his time so we always had a lot of family time.


I describe myself as a Piece Maker. I work with material like metal, clay, wax, textil etc.

I write poetry, lyrics and music which I also perform at times.

Now I am very focused on writing and researching, creating new environments and spaces, restructuring habits and wanting to impose that on certain social structures.


Have you got any upcoming events or plans that you can share:

I’m in the midst of Mothers in Residence, which is my art project.

My wish with the project was to create a place for the duality of the maker/mother.

A local residence, a community where you can work and be in midst of life as a mother and yet be participating in something grounded with space for intellectual stimulation.

Right now MiR is offering an artist in residence for a local maker in Gothenburg.

The association wants its members to find a way to finish old work, or start a new project if you are ready to work on your creative practise again, we have no age limit for the child/children, you don’t need to be a new mum (no age limit on the mother either).

We want to be able offer positive support, acknowledgement and means to a residence close to home that could be helpful.


And I’m also looking in to releasing an EP I recorded and worked on pre-pregnancy 2014.

Tell us a little bit more about how you developed your technique?

I trained and studied silversmithing and jewellery making in London (Sir John Cass department Met.Uni & Royal College of Art) and I taught myself to play the guitar. I usually take time out between projects or techniques and swap in-between. Learning new techniques is inspiring to me, sometimes that’s what I do to get working again - try something new.

The teacher in primary school tried to make me hold the pen a certain way when I was about seven years old but I can’t do things they way it should be done, never have. It takes too much energy and cause frustration.

I was diagnosed with dyspraxia (and with it dyslexia) during my MA. It affects most things, motor skills and mechanics, language, time acknowledgement.

Usually I work thematically, so if I make a piece of jewellery it’s inspired by a song, or a theme that is found elsewhere in my work.

Now I’m obsessed with this project so can’t think about much more than that.

It was when I did my dissertation at the RCA that I discovered the beauty of research. It was honestly the best part of the whole master degree’s part for me.

Has your location affected you, your art practise, perspective and network:

Yes, a lot. London was my caretaker and guide into adulthood. I moved there when I was 22 and rarely went back, so all my friends and connections and how I became a grown up happened there. I learned my trade, I performed during certain periods almost every week. It’s possible in London, if you don’t mind drunken brawlers throwing pints at you.

You can get very inspired, wired and exhausted in London because it never stops but it’s a good life, even though it can be hard living without your family nearby.

You can be poor in London and still participate in life and do stuff. FUN STUFF. I feel lucky because in all my making and during my studies and meeting with peers and teachers I was taught to be very humble towards others work. Critical but humble and I try to take that with me wherever I go.

I still find it hard to relate to certain ways of working in Sweden, Gothenburg even though I lived here for 8 years now. I can find that the connected culture life here is more based on who you studied with than what you have created.


What is your story on becoming a mother, and has your approach and methods changed since you became a parent:

I honestly had an identity crises. I wasn’t interested in my creative practise like I always assumed just was an obvious part of ME almost as a whole person. I went into hardcore research mode instead. Hardly touched my tools, stopped singing besides lullabies. I worked on my old fears. It interested me as I really tried to hold on to my old ways of working but it just depressed me. Everyone is so individual in their experiences.

My main focus was my daughter and our home (even though we where homeless for 7 months).

Now I spend a lot of time writing. But I do have quite a few practical pieces that I wish to finish. I am in still on the learning curve of taking one thing at a time.

I’ve always been based in my imaginary world, and since I become a mother I got so much more practical and time which I used to spend frivolously like working whenever I felt like it.

Before I was made a mama I used to love to work on stolen time, for example when everybody else went to a party, or just before I went to school or my job or before a meeting, which resulted in me being rather late/or called in sick. That changed after motherhood.

I’ve come to realise that research is healing.

You gather more pieces of information to form a fuller image of the subject you are trying to grasp and to reach a fuller understanding.

In life within relationships where you have invested research and understanding, I find that when the other person act in a specific way that can be annoying for hurtful you judge less and react less out of fear yourself.

Hence the beauty with longterm friendships, or even within relationships you haven’t been able to control on participating with such as your own mother for example.

If you have the means to research her upbringing or background you can easier understand/heal certain issues.

Not saying that anyone should stay in hurtful relationships because of that!

But after I had a baby I saw everyone around me as babies, angry oldies on the bus, people that pretended not to see me when I could have used a hand with the pram to get on the tram etc.. I was hormonel and full of love.. -’oh that one didn’t get enough love when he was a baby!’

I know, judgemental, but I didn’t have the research means for that specific person, just my own experiences and research on infants brains and how affection in infants affects behaviour later in life.

(*Sue Gerhardt 'why love matters how affection shapes a baby's brain’)


How much time a week do you spend on working/thinking/planning:

Now my daughter is five, I got four to five days a week from 9.30-3pm to do that.

I use (unwillingly) waken parts of nighttime too if I haven’t had enough time the day to finish a thought or a certain task.


Are you part of an artist community:

I am working on creating one!

I’ve got my dear friends but it’s hard to draw the line at talking shop when I want to tell them my all my secrets and recent strange dreams and the other way around etc.

Most of us got children, so time on the phone is also equal interruption time.


Could you see yourself as a mentor to another artist / What would you be good at mentoring:

Not sure to be honest. I do get very invested in people, I can hold them in my frame intensively and at the same time be objective about them. Although I cannot hold my focus on someone else for too long. Might be good for a mentor?

My positive mentoring could be the intense framework, my negative side could be loss of focus and lack of structure.

I haven’t been preparing or thought of myself as a mentor hence the wobbly response.


How is your experience with the representation on female artists combining motherhood within the art world/your community:

Since I started with MiR it’s more than I thought. It’s inspiring and beautiful, I love sharing stories, they are always helpful.

That is why we wanted to start with these interviews.

Do you have daily routines or rituals that help you get into work mode:

Oh.. I’m bad with routines. Always have been. I can do them maximin a week.

But I light a candle every morning at the breakfast table to bless a good day for us all. And I like to have a candle lit by my workspace. I’m well into ceremonies.

Sometimes I worry and procrastinate quite a bit before getting into work mode because it is so hard to get out of it afterwards. And then it’s Bang- Family time!

If I’m still in my headspace I get irritable which is ’bad mama vibes’ and so I try to avoid that for all of ours sake.

How do you relax / where / how do you source your power:

I read, sing or meditate. I do my tarot cards and reflect, take long showers and just try to make sure I get alone time. Speak to my friends, sisters or my mother when I got an issue in my head. I call them my ’norm centre’.

I freeze in winter, but in summer and autumn I use nature to source power; swimming in lakes and almost get lost in the forrest.

I play in my mind. I talk to myself a lot.


Where is your studio, where do you have private space to reflect and develop and execute ideas:

At the moment no, I work from home, my studio has no heating so been frozen since December. And it looks like it will turn into a galleri space anyhow, it's on Bangatan in Gothenburg


What excites you most about your future:

Having another baby.

Working this project (MiR) through and hoping for a good continuation and possible collaborations.


What advice would you give to emerging artists entering motherhood:

Just do it. It’s possible, find people you feel inspired by and comfortable with no matter location and keep in contact, even if it’s once a year.

Get lost in yourself and find yourself anew.

Sometimes having someone to write a letter to or a quick text message to share a thought with is what brings you back to your centre if you feel to up in your own head.

Nightly thoughts that can be constructive even if they are disruptive.

If I haven’t had my family sleeping next to me and having to get up early, I would have gone up to do work. So I actually send myself text messages in the night.

I guess my advice is to journal.. in any way possible.

And as a parent I’d advise anyone to be present in oneself and to look at the beliefs one hold as what a good parent is, as it’s possible to change those expectations.

My personal parental format is that I chose to have a child, my child deserves the best of childhood that my partner and I can provide.

I don’t believe in perfection, like to never lose your temper or whatever. I think it’s good to be a human whilst being a (sometimes excellent, sometimes not so excellent) mother/father/caregiver.

Being a parental guide that can say sorry and explain why mama shouted at that sour old man who criticised her pocket parking..

But a loving secure relationship, good food, hugs and quality time together is what I strive to give as a mamma.

It’s easy to get heavy on the self critique.


What do you want to bring to the table within your art community / Are you missing any discussions, themes etc:

I wish to bring up the discussion, especially within the higher studies of art, that no one ever talk about how becoming a mother can change your condition as an artist.

I mean you all got the same student loan debts. If you studied to a masters degree, especially abroad, you got loan for about 600 000sek.

But being away from your practise from pregnancy, maternity leave (we got over a years paid maternity leave in Sweden which is great, it should be two years I think, in regards to the children’s brain maturity and for attachment purposes to their parents) will affect your comeback so to speak.

You can’t network the same way, your energy levels will be different, your hours will be shorter. And you need to work out whether you wanna leave your babes for a month or so to go to a residence?

You can’t sit up all night to write an application because you got to sleep..someone will wake up, there are nightmares, or just an itchy night or fever or someone might wake up at the time that you used to come home from a party, pre-family life.


Women need more sleep than men, our brains are wired differently. Our brains also goes through a second ’puberty’ when we are pregnant. Loss of focus, fatigue etc the brain rearrangement are there still after two years research has shown.

I understand biological genus talk isn’t so interested when we are in a culture of sort of ’denying’ differences in the genders in reaching for more equality. (I am talking about sharing the parental leave equally, which was earlier given equality points by the Swedish government).

What if my baby and I wanna do the breast-feed longer than that?

What if my partner can’t take parental leave because (s)he’s got a business to run that will go under if they don’t work for six months, or if (s)he’s a farmer etc? Or if you’re two creatives having a family together, or if you’re on minimun maternity leave. I was, so we couldn’t afford my boyfriend to take parental leave. And I had no guaranteed money coming in after my maternity leave was over. Every family should be able to do what is best for them.

Equality shouldn’t be on the expense of women, again. Equality should come with highlighting the differences. Individually too.


And I think that is why this project is important. To make a practical effort.

There are statistics done of creatives income, and who’s been away most from their practise and the reasons (health, parental leave), who makes more money, both between what creative field and between genders.. It’s from 2008 I think but it’s still interesting if you’re into statistics.

*https://www.konstnarsnamnden.se/Sve/Informationssidor/PDFer/KN_Inkomsterna_2011_Inlaga_korr02.pdf

Astronaut / 'Baby bubble' pendant

18 carat yellow gold



Silver hinged fresh water pearl with 'warchild' pendant on chain.

Comment on children affected by war.



Shallow water music video made and sung by A.M.Hedman

Muse: Tove Nilsson



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Updated: Feb 8

Mothers in Residence erbjuder nu dig som är mor och konstnär/konsthantverkare i Göteborg med omnejd att ansöka om residens och delad ateljéplats med en annan konstnär i en projektateljé på KKV GBG under maj-juni.

STORA PROJEKTATELJÉN HALVA 2

Ca 32m²

Fönster åt väster och ca 4m till tak. Finns på fjärde våningen med ingång från grafikavdelningen. Tillgång till vatten och diskbänk. Länk Sista ansökningsdatum är den 10:e mars 2021.

Skriv till oss och berätta vad du skulle vilja göra med de två månader på denna fantastiska plats.

Under ditt residens kommer du erbjudas en mentor/tekniker från ditt val av verkstad samt en crit-grupp av konstnärer där vi pratar om din skapandeprocess och våra egna.

Vi finns här för dig och vill ge hjälp och stöd. Du får tillgång till ateljén, verkstäder och introduktion av tekniker á 3 tillfällen.

Du står själv för dina utlägg för resa, mat, verkstadstimmar och material. Vi ser gärna att du har barnomsorg så att du kan nyttja tillfället till det yttersta. Du får tillfälle att bjuda in på ateljévisning, ha konstnärssamtal och ta del av MiRs instagram genom din process. När residenset avslutats vill vi ha tillgång till foto eller dokumentation av verk och en kommentar om ditt nyttjande av residenset.

Mothers in Residence är en förening med ett lokalt residensprogram för konstnärligt skapande mammor för att aktualisera och aktivera sin konstpraktik efter att ha varit mammalediga, eller på något sätt stått över sitt arbete i förmån till familjelivet.

Det är inte många residenser som tar hänsyn till småbarnslivet och att kunna vara en plats för skapande och en närvarande förälder, MiRs syfte är även att förverkliga fler sätt att lyfta frågan om kombinationen av moderskap och konstnärligt skapande. Gärna genom praktiska lösningar/projekt/samarbeten.

Föreningens mål är att motverka att kvinnliga konstnärer och kulturarbetare faller bort från sin konstpraktik/artisteri då familjen tillkommer, pga ekonomi, tid, familjedynamik, brist på struktur och stöd från omgivningen.

På vår hemsida www.mothersinresidence.se/residence finns ansökan. Kom bara ihåg att det krävs ett fullt medlemskap hos MiR för att kunna ansöka om att göra ett residens. Se på sidan för medlemskap hur det går till eftersom vi erbjuder två olika medlemskap. Det finns även möjlighet att använda KKV Göteborgs verkstäder genom medlemskap i Mothers In Residence. Men det är viktigt att du ansöker med en tydlig idé av det arbete du vill genomföra för att du ska få tillträde. Samt att du är där på eget ansvar. Vill du ha mer information om hur organisationsmedlemskapet fungerar klicka här

OBS! Tillgången till verkstäderna kräver att du blir godkänd av de ansvariga på den verkstan, och kunskapskraven varierar mellan verkstäderna; vill du veta mer så kontakta respektive verkstadsansvarig .https://kkvgbg.se/verkstadsansvariga/

Om ateljén:

STORA PROJEKTATELJÉN HALVA 2

Ca 32m², hyra 2600kr [ingen moms]

Fönster åt väster och ca 4m till tak. Finns på fjärde våningen med ingång från grafikavdelningen. En av väggarna består av nedmonteringsbar trävägg som delar av rummet mot “Stora Projektateljén halva 1″. Tillgång till vatten och diskbänk.


Om KKV Konstnärernas Kollektivverkstad Göteborg är en idéell förening som bildades 1974 av en grupp konstnärer i samarbete med Göteborgs Kommun som sedan starten helhjärtat stött verksamheten. Nu finns nästan 20 avdelningar som är öppna för yrkesverksamma konstnärer och konsthantverkare.

Mothers in Residence

For makers and mothers

www.mothersinresidence.se

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  • MiR


Mothers in Residence (MiR) är ett nytt forum för dig som är konstnär, hantverkare, kreatör, musiker och som också är mamma. Artist in residence-programmet är baserat i Göteborg. Residenset har i år beviljats stöd på en halv miljon från Göteborgs Stad. Modellen innebär att du som konstnär/kreatör ska kunna genomföra ett artist in residence utan att behöva lämna familjen i flera veckor. Samtidigt kan du få tillgång till gemenskap, mentorskap och utställningstillfällen. Att kunna ta tillvara på sitt hemmaliv, vara mammaledig och ändå känna sig trygg att komma tillbaka till din praktik, på egna villkor.

Projektidén Mothers in residence initierades 2016 av tingmakaren Anna Maria Hedman (Master of Arts, Goldsmithing, metalwork & jewellery departement på Royal College of Art, London) i samband med en doktorandansökan. Hedman har sedan dess jobbat på att lyfta frågan och hennes eget intresse av frågan härstammar från att ha flyttat från London till Göteborg och startat familj. Utan en samhörighet med lokala konstutbildningar eller med ett professionellt nätverk i Sverige, och i kombination med avsaknad av sociala förbindelser inom stadens kulturerbjudande för konstnärer/mammor, spenderades mammaledigheten med research på hjärnans påverkan av graviditet och med ett online artist residence in motherhood av Lenka Clayton. I denna konstnärliga isolering utvecklades tingmakarens vision vidare.

Våren 2019 började det röra på sig och 2020 fick projektet stöd av Göteborgs kulturförvaltning att starta upp residens och utveckla projektet till det som nu har blivit Mothers in Residence. Konsulenterna inom samtida konst, arkitektur, form och design i Västra Götalandsregionen har funnit med som bollplank och rådgivande stöd.

Nu bjuder MiR in fler att delta

Vi tror att vi tillsammans kan hjälpa varandra med arbetstillfällen och utveckla ett konstruktivt nätverk, göra roliga event och även sträcka ut handen mot nationella och internationella samarbeten. Mothers in Residence är skapat för att kunna vara verksam i sin praktik och mamma utan att behöva dela sig i två bitar, eller ursäkta sig för att man har Paw Patrol på i bakgrunden när man har ett viktigt samtal. Vi är intresserade av din synvinkel och vad du skulle vilja utveckla. Du kanske vill ha en mentor eller bli mentor till en annan konstnär? Behöver hjälp att strukturera din tid, göra ett event, starta en crit group eller synliggöra dig i ett specifikt sammanhang. Vår grundidé och vårt mål är att möjliggöra varandra och oss själva. Vi tror inte att kulturvärlden är för liten för fler att verka i eller att det ska vara dyrt att presenteras i en professionell kontext. Vi vill utveckla gränser för yrkesområden, vi vill skapa mer utrymme.


www.mothersinresidence.se

https://www.kulturivast.se/samtida-konst-arkitektur-form-och-design/mothers-in-residence-nystartat-residensprogram-i-goteborg


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